The perfect mirror
When I wake up every morning, the first thing I face is myself. And usually, I don’t like what I see. It can be quite depressing. Negative thoughts, negative feelings. In fact, since I was a teenager I’ve had to battle against melancholy and depression. Laura is very different. She is naturally a more positive person than I am. She sees the glass half full already. I long for the day when I won’t have to face this daily struggle, but I am coming to accept it and even to be grateful for it because it pushes me towards God. Like Paul I am learning to “take pleasure in my infirmities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
We become like what we contemplate or look at. We are imitators. So looking at what I call my false self doesn’t lead me to genuine change. We are like people in a hall of mirrors which distort our image and we have forgotten who we really are. Remember the scene from the Lion King where the young lion prince Simba who is living in exile under false guilt and condemnation, one day finds himself looking at his reflection in a pool of water. Watch it here:
At first, all he sees is his own reflection. But then when he looks harder he begins to see his father in his own reflection. His father says, “You have forgotten who you are, you are my son.” A paraphrase of Psalm 23, “He leads me beside still waters, he restores my soul,” could be: “In the still waters of reflection my soul is being restored.”
Jesus said, “If you have seen me, you have seen the Father.” Jesus is not just an example for us, He is the example of us. He is the true and original blueprint of our being. We may have forgotten who we are, and created a false self. But God has never forgotten the original and true self that he created in his image. We must keep our eyes fixed on Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith.
A long look at Jesus can heal us of our amnesia about who God is and who we are.
So I make it a habit every morning to not stay too long looking at my false self. I look at Jesus and I begin to remember who I am. And I try to look at others in the same way, to see them for who they are in Christ.
« But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as from the Lord, the Spirit. » 2 Cor. 3:18
« All the ends of the earth will remember and turn to the Lord, and all the families of the nations will bow down before him. » Psalm 22:27
Jesus, thank you that you come and find me and remind me of who the Father is and of who I am.